April is almost over!

" Neutral is state where you are not jumping ahead too quickly or moving too slow. Neutral does not mean being inactive complacent or passive. Its about a calm poise that allows new information and new possibilities to emerge before taking further action. When in neutral you actually increase your sensitivity and intuitive intelligence. Neutral is fertile ground for new possibilities to grow from."

Don Childre

This is the state that I am in at the moment, neither passive nor complacent. It seems like I am, but simply weighing a few options in hand. I guiltily confess, since graduating last December I have been relaxing, maybe because I have been working non-stop then continuing my study right after. I said that I owe it to myself to relax for a while, to justify why I need time to relax. De-stress for a while.

Options? Yes, I wasn't thinking of any other option early in the year. The plan was to graduate and find a job soon after. But the global crisis and recession in the UK have made me re-think of what I want to do. Working? Studying? Currently there are two options in hand and I intend to do both, God's willing. Not exactly choosing, is it? Intuitive intelligence? New possibilities? Hmm...I hope so. The Balmoral Prize that I won in December, kinda triggered it. Also the fact that I will be presenting about my dissertation in the APM event (also another competition) for Aberdeen Chapter. Will talk about this later. I am also hoping that this event will be a stepping stone for me to get a job even if it is for two years IF I get my post study permit that allows me to work here.

Until then, I will think of other options if these fail. I pray, NOT.

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